I’m trying to be fine with this
I’m just surprised on this sudden big news
yeah, I’m just shocked and then fine.
If I really am fine, why this heart says there is something that is SLIGHTLY wrong?
If I really am fine, why is it hard to believe on it, to accept it, and to not be affected by it?
If I really am fine, then why am I writing this in my blog?
I once dreamed about him being sick and hospitalized, then just in a few days I got a news that he really was sick and had been hospitalized for awhile.
Then tonight, I dreamed about him marrying someone and that I was attending his wedding ceremony.
Then I told him, I told him that I had a dream about him (again), I was smiling when I typed that on his Facebook, I was expecting him to say nonsensical stuff just to fool me around just like we used to be, but I was wrong. I got his reply, saying that in a week from now, he is going to propose to his girl.
Then my smile dropped.
Yet, I typed such a smiley reply for him, congratulating and teasing him.
I guess, I’ll be able to forget about this tomorrow, when I open my eyes and start my day. This might just a temporary shock I feel ‘cause someone who has been so kind to me is taking a step away for me.
When I’m finally home and tell him that I’m home, he - probably - asks for a meet up in front of my house or maybe his house - just because we’re a neighbor - and I’ll just greet him nicely like nothing’s changed. Yes, it supposes to be like that.
Simply like that.